some things are not worth waiting for
Saturday, March 31, 2007
waiting is something that you will inevitably have to deal with
some things are worth waiting for
others are not
man today was a wasted day
waited for nothing for 150 minutes
the feeling of not being able to do what you want
is downright frustrating
funny how people can get worked up over some game
this is what i call addiction
not getting ur dosage
leads to withdrawal symptoms
moodiness
temper swings violently
all over an arcade game
this friday got 5 people who will kena guard duty
i keep my fingers crossed
dun want to get this date
why?
cos its a darn public holiday
one guard duty will essentially burn off 30 hours of ur time
2 precious nites of sleep which is godsend for nsfs
want to sign in to msn but it doesnt seem to be working
12:07:00 AM
keep holding on
Saturday, March 24, 2007
the past week has been supposedly a more relaxing week
but dunno why always feel so tired
every single day got to run here run there
other than that
playing bridge
talking cock
me trying to play chinese chess but keep getting owned by my platoonmates
it seems a lot of things that i play
i keep screwing up
farking frustrating
learning how to play saboteur game
i still cant play contract brigde
only floating brigde
the camp is still mozzie infested
everyday guaranteed to feed them for free
only by spraying repellant at nite can i sleep well
nites out on wednesday
played some lan
saw first hand how pro one of my platoonmates is
be it cs or dota
prozzzzzzz
today or rather friday morning
got ippt test for the ptp guys
for us it was a trial
not too bad
but some stupid insect bit my back and its leaving a large swelling there
this isnt even outfield and im getting bitten already
YUX
hope i get accepted into the local u's
though i noe the chances are not high
ugh feeling all moody and restless
why......
i like this song
avril lavigne
keep holding on
meaningful imo
nitez guys
12:28:00 AM
too little too late
Sunday, March 18, 2007
im sure many times u had this feeling of too little too late
sometimes u tell urself to do something
but u procastinate until its too late
by the time u get urself to doing it
its too little time too late
ahaha actually
im just making a reference to the song
by jojo
had a good time yesterday with some of my platoon mates
watched 300 at ps
a good show i would say
a tad too gory for my taste
i dont like gore and violence
had a meal at paradiz center
wanted to have a buffet but the restaurant was too full
so headed to the foodcourt instead
played a few rounds of pool
ah siang sure can play
off to the arcade for a while for ronnie to play tekken
and me my wmmt2
then back home
i glanced by the newpaper today
had some headline
about service industry prefers hiring people who are pretty/beautiful
waiteress/hostess/shop assistant/ dancers/ bartenders/stewardess
its sad
to me why penalise those who are blessed with good looks
not everyone is born equal
is this why society is so obsessed with beauty
they say beauty is only skin deep
but how far is this really true
perhaps this is why the pursuit of happiness is not acheiveable with people more concerned about other things
bookin in in about 2 and half hours plus time...... grrrrrr
so fast the weekend is gone
the weekend should last 96 hours instead of 48 hours
grr
6:47:00 PM
seletar
Friday, March 16, 2007
heya
first post after spending a week at seletar
this camp is massive
consists of many units but the buildings sure are old and run down
not to mention ultra dusty
and mozzie infested
everyday have to wage war with the mozzies
unfortunately the mozzies have the upperhand
except at nite
cos i got my weapon
an orange bottle
MUAHAHAHAA
called OFF!!
PSSSSSSSTTTTTTT spray here and there
and viola
a nice nites sleep
i didnt bring enough clothings.......
particularily what superman wears
ugh.........
embarrasing
been feeling darn drained through the entire week
my nose constantly being irritated by all this dust
flu like symptoms appearing among my platoonmates
somemore the bunk is so small but being filled with more people
alvin told me a lot of things
what he sayz is true to a large extent
i feel contradicted
on one hand i want to to be nice to people
on the other hand i dont want people to step all over me...
people keep saying im serious
yeah thats my personality
i noe i m not that entertainer among people
i can joke around
but i surely noe that im not the "comedian"
my gift isnt in entertaining people thats for sure
a book i bought last week is darn insightful
yeah its been a long time since i bought a proper book
i prefer magazines
teenage is good to read
insight to feed my teen side
mens health helps cater to the adult side of me that is fast approching
if today is the 16th of march
then its just one more month exactly
to the big 20
twenty
no mans land
neither teen nor adult
during nites out
i played lan with some of my platoon mates
its been ages since i done so
cant play dota for nuts
playing cs is fine for me
but up to now
playing wmmt2 still gives me the most satisfaction
11 more months to go
11:40:00 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
i read someones blog and i find his entry very meaningful
to quote from him
" a blog is supposed to be an online diary" that is an oxymoron
why? diary is supposed to be a place where u share ur private thoughts without ur things being exposed on the internet to be scrutinised
so why blog
i really have no idea why i blog
i actually want it to be my private outlet to let out my rants
sort of a method of destressing
but the actual process of blogging is makeing me more stressed
everything u type has the potential to land u in hot soup
say something wrong and u could be liable for lawsuits
life seems to have become so complicated
the last place where u thought u could remain annoymous
alas the inter net is no longer as free as u think it is
my weekends come and go by too fast
they are my only source of relief from the army
yet i dont enjoy satisfaction from my weekends
why is this so?
why is it i put up the facade that everything seems okay
when maybe deep down it really isnt
i have no direction in mylife
i m still thinking what course should i do in uni
am i even CUT OUT FOR UNI?
what should i do in the future
what job?
BLINDLY FOLLOW THE RAT RACE IN SILLYPORE?
is it any wonder that in developed countries around the world
people are increasingly stressed
why?
the pursuit of material wealth
status
POPULARITY
which people all so crave
people need to feel acceptance from others
people need to feel loved
lacking which
makes one increasingly JAded
and Cynical
i want to rant somemore but i must get my precious sleep
the construction work opposite my house may probably wake me up before 10 am tml
so its off to slumberland
nitez
12:00:00 AM
the pursuit of happiness
Friday, March 02, 2007
you know ive been thinking a lot about some issues
what is the purpose of all this studying
this rat race to make money and earn a living
becoming materially rich doenst necessarily equate to happiness
sure you can buy luxury stuff
u feel materially satisfied
but are ur emotional and social needs met
i think i have lost myself in this disillusionment of what the purpose of my life
is
i have no idea at all
all i c myself is just drifting through life
finish ns
ord
go to uni and study
find a job
then what?
find a gf?
hopefully get married
and start a family
?
is this what i want?
i myself have no answer to this perplexing question
what is the purpose of life?
issues that are more pressing
stayin life is returning in just a few days
returned to camp just last tuesday for soc training
darn tired
combat fitness gone liao
luckily can clear all obstacles
no probs
just that my darned hands got blistered again
cursed with sweaty palms
youtube is a nice place to find music videos
it allows you to broadcast urself
lets u gain instant fame or notoriety immediately
the power of the medi a
one news that got me thinking
9 year old girl got pregnant by a primary school boy and gave birth
at such a young age and experimenting with sex already..........
promiscious
way too young for a relationship of that sort
11:25:00 PM
